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Draw me?
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Hmm.. Would anyone draw me? I've always wanted someone to draw me xD It would make my day!!
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Favorites
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Ok, everyone who has faved any of my photos thank you! There were too many for me to go through them all and thank you all personally
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Long time no journal
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Well i see my last journal was last year from one of the numerous cyberbullies i've gotten. oh well i guess.
i'm mostly posting this to say that the pictures that we're just posted of me will probably be the last for awhile unless theyre just head shots.
the main reason is i'm trying to gain weight because i have been bullied in person and over the internet and developed an eating disorder. Now i'm trying to fight it and move past what they said or did. Also moving past the same thoughts i've had for years about how i look or my body image. yah i know i have a lot of photos of myself posted. i site modeled which is why i have so many. i was just looking for an excuse to say i was ok and for proof. but one day went to the doctor and found out how much i weighed. that's when it hit me how bad everything had been. i was weighed in at 91 pounds. and yeah one part of me was happy about that, but i don't want to be happy about that, ever again. that's not a good thing for me to be happy about. i am now at 94 which is a little better but i am setting goals for myself so those are helping a little same with my family and friends that are supporting me through out this. i also have clinical depression and bad anxiety problems, especially social anxiety. but at this point i have no choice but to gain the weight. i have no reserves on my body. and that could kill me. so i'm trying hard to gain weight so i can live and be happy i guess. so yeah i guess that's kinda it. i may not post much about this on here. but i do have a youtube and piczo that i keep somewhat updated. so if you're interested in knowing how i'm doing or something along those lines here's the links. I guess that's all.
www.youtube.com/user/BlameSkit…
ruthless-kayla1995.piczo.com/?…
i'm mostly posting this to say that the pictures that we're just posted of me will probably be the last for awhile unless theyre just head shots.
the main reason is i'm trying to gain weight because i have been bullied in person and over the internet and developed an eating disorder. Now i'm trying to fight it and move past what they said or did. Also moving past the same thoughts i've had for years about how i look or my body image. yah i know i have a lot of photos of myself posted. i site modeled which is why i have so many. i was just looking for an excuse to say i was ok and for proof. but one day went to the doctor and found out how much i weighed. that's when it hit me how bad everything had been. i was weighed in at 91 pounds. and yeah one part of me was happy about that, but i don't want to be happy about that, ever again. that's not a good thing for me to be happy about. i am now at 94 which is a little better but i am setting goals for myself so those are helping a little same with my family and friends that are supporting me through out this. i also have clinical depression and bad anxiety problems, especially social anxiety. but at this point i have no choice but to gain the weight. i have no reserves on my body. and that could kill me. so i'm trying hard to gain weight so i can live and be happy i guess. so yeah i guess that's kinda it. i may not post much about this on here. but i do have a youtube and piczo that i keep somewhat updated. so if you're interested in knowing how i'm doing or something along those lines here's the links. I guess that's all.
www.youtube.com/user/BlameSkit…
ruthless-kayla1995.piczo.com/?…
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